My little boy, my big boy,
You suffered so much, at 14 you were diagnosed with cancer, after treatment you said you would never have any more treatments. You said you were staying heavier incase it came back so you could fight it better, I told you I understood how you felt but that I would make you fight it because I wanted you to stay with me. Then the time came for you to have your leg amputated, you were so upset, in so much pain, and said you no longer wanted to live, I told you the pain would go away and you will get through this, boy were you mad at me for telling your big mouth sister Debi who told the nurse to put you on 24 hour suicide watch, how you hated being watched every second. My heart bled for you always, I couldn't understand why this had to happen to you. I prayed for you to be well, and prayed to god to spare your other leg, as faith would have it you were going to have to get your other foot amputated, which by the way you were hiding from me. I know you were strong for everything you went through, always in pain but always with a smile. You told me you wouldn't leave me, that you would stick around for me, I guess you were tired and couldn't hold on. I'll be taking you home now, to keep you safe until my time is up, then our bodies will make that final journey together, mother and son together holding hands, together in death. Bye for now my youngest son, I love you David. Save me a good spot. Forever you will live in my heart.
Love, Mom
